This podcast is a more intimate companion to Borderline, Ohio: A Memoir in Essays, in progress. The podcast features taped conversations and voicemails from 2009-10. I have created this for anyone interested in the intersections of family dynamics, mental illness, and the creative process. The podcast is grounded in a sense of place (the American Midwest and northwest Ohio specifically), the impacts of Christian fundamentalism and toxic right-wing media on fragile family bonds, and the importance of the culture industry--films like Blue Velvet and others--as balms against the chaos of family. The podcast is animated with what Roland Barthes called "the grain of the voice," in this case the often anguished exchanges between my mother and I.